The Best People Are Crazy (And I'm One of Them).
- canelaflames
- Sep 27
- 3 min read
Oh don't be ridiculous Andrea. Everybody wants this! That is a quote from Devil Wears Prada, and I have never understood it more clearly than this very moment. The 'this' that Miranda Priestly was referring to is all of the success, the glitz and glam. The spotlight. White knuckling your position of power just to prove what one should already know about one's self, you are amazing. You are capable. 'You is kind. You is smart. You is important.' In my opinion, this whole 'crabs in a barrel', working our way to the top. Fuck it... raw.
If I could ask Miranda one thing, I would ask, "Girlie, is the 'everybody' you speak of in the room with us?" Because I am not seeing it. Ain't no way! I have a whole husband... HUSBAND... that I thoroughly enjoy spending time with. In the words of Lin Manuel Miranda's Hamilton, "you must be out of your got damn mind if you think..." I would want to trade my free time with my husband for things that I do not enjoy doing. I'm not the fucking crazy one.
Yes, I am intelligent. Yes, I have been through a lot. No, my past is not difficult to share because I know who I am and I am not ashamed of that. If that means that you think I am crazy too, then so be it. According to the Mad Hatter of Alice in Wonderland, "You're mad, bonkers, completely off your head. But the secret is, all the best people are." The BEST.. not mediocre, not semi okay, not the plain janes of the world. The BEST people are. I would trade the Miranda Priestlys for the Mad Hatters of the world ANY mother fuckin' DAY of the week!
It is all starting to make sense now. I agree with India Arie in her song Heart of the Matter, "the more I know, the less I understand. All the things I thought I had figured out, I have to learn again." Why be so ambitious? Chasing the corporate ladder or non-profit ladder (tea!) to make someone else rich? I can be poor and miserable working for myself rather than working for someone else. That does not make me dumb or crazy, that just makes me resilient. That makes me curious about the world around me. And that's the key to all of this. That is worth being excited about.
Before I can dive into academics and learning, I want to say that I am sorry for judging people for what they did when they were trying to survive. It is easy to sit on the sidelines of life. It is easier to write about the happenings of the world, rather than sticking one's neck out there to see how circumstances work out. I want to do both. I want to stick my neck out there AND write about what is happening. If you want to talk about it, be about it - I cannot quote the original person who said that quote, but I heard it a lot when I was growing up. I, personally, respect the go-getters of the world more than the sit back and watchers of the world. Sorry, not sorry.
Payback is a baddie named Solène, and my God, does she love myself. I found my voice. That does not make me arrogant. I see what Brantley fell in love with, and I am so happy that she is me. Flaws and all. I love everything about me, and you could not make me feel otherwise. I understand why health care professionals ask if I am suicidal. Today, I looked at a counselor and said, "Kill myself? Do you know how much potential I have?" Like, bitch, is you fuckin' dumb? (this is a Cardi B reference, keep up!) All it takes is one person to believe in you and I have an army of people (figuratively speaking, don't trip!) who love and support me. They may not agree with all my swearing, but... they love me. So, fuck you, Miranda Priestly (the character, not the actress. Meryl Streep is a cultural icon, and I will not elaborate on that any further). Eat a bag of dicks. Everyone does not want the 'this' you speak of. I am so happy with my husband and our home. It is just right for where we are in our life, and I am done being brainwashed into wanting more than all the good that I already have.
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